Life never seems to go how we think it will. We all know this. I know this all too well. My dad always told me, “We make plans, and God laughs.” No matter how much planning we all do, no matter how much you think it is all figured out, it takes the blink of an eye for life to throw a curve ball.
My school year did not end how I thought it would. It was certainly a year of trials and tribulations. I found great friends while at the same time learning about necessary boundaries. I learned the necessity to think before you speak (something I have struggled with my whole life) and how to stand up for myself. My last semester I cried a lot, but through that I was still able to find the humor in it all. It was a year of growth and I learned a lot about myself along with what exactly my priorities were.
Throughout the ups and downs, I also learned that my greatest coping mechanism is humor. Through the tears, anger, frustrations, and celebrations; I found that laughing at myself and the situations made it easier to get through. I kept cracking jokes and it just made anything that felt heavy, a lot lighter. I’d like to think that I address issues like Chandler from Friends – an awkward transition followed by some sort of joke (my jokes are often hit or miss).
With all that being said, it made it easy for me to realize that I was not where I needed to be. I hadn’t found my perfect fit yet. It’s frustrating that it didn’t work out how I had envisioned it. However, finding out that you need to make a change in your life is still good information to have. It’s just one more way of helping me navigate through life so that I can get where I need to be. It is almost a freeing feeling. I can let go and be okay that things didn’t work out. I can take with me the positive of what this year brought, and I can walk away knowing that it just wasn’t meant to be.
So, I moved on and managed to lock in a job. I thought to myself Man, it really does all work out. This will be so perfect and these are all the reasons why… it’s crazy how it all worked out… Then, the day after I signed my new contract, my husband received a job offer that would relocate us across the country. Within 24 hours of my things feeling settled in and perfect, life flipped everything upside down!
This last year has given me this “all in” approach. I’m over trying to plan everything out. We have bought 4 houses in 4 years thinking we will grow into the house with lots of little ones and grow our community, only to leave a year later. So I told my husband, “Take the job. I haven’t started the school year yet, we’ve only been here a year, let’s take this leap before we get too attached. We don’t have anything to lose and this is too good of an opportunity to pass up.”
This is the second attempt life has tried to get us to Arizona and it’s just clearly where we need to be, right now. This is our mulligan. I’m not going to go in with the attitude we’re going to live here forever or we’re going to be in this house for years. I’m going to focus on what is happening now. I have no idea where this will lead. So I’m done trying to plan accordingly. Whatever happens, happens.
With that being said, our next house is going to be what we need right now. We don’t need a big house that we might grow into one day. It’s just the two of us. So let’s get a smaller house (not to mention it will be so much less to clean!!!) We’re focusing on all things that this opportunity will bring us and trying to embrace the change rather than becoming overwhelmed and being scared. There’s no use in being scared and focusing on what we are leaving behind because it’s not going to change anything. Yes, we have made some amazing friends. But that doesn’t mean these friendships have to end. It simply means that there are more friendships to be made.
We are moving. Period. And from this experience we will continue to grow. I will cry and laugh. It will be one more guiding factor that will lead us to where we’re supposed to be. It will lead me to the school, community, and life that we have been looking for. It will be a huge change for us, but change can be a good thing. Change is a necessary thing. And, with the right attitude and some humor; you just might find yourself laughing your way through it.